Blessed

As I sit and type this, I hold the sweetest, spunkiest 5 going on 6 month old. I feel so lucky to get to have your cute little self in my home as I just stare at your adorable golden lashes that I can't seem to capture on camera, just right. I hope you have them forever, and that they never turn black. Every time I have put you in your crib today it hasn't lasted long. That's ok, because I know you just want to be held. I know this is a behavior that we should be working on, but today I just cherish it.  I love that you love being with your Mommy. My life has changed so incredibly much since you came into this world. I am sincerely grateful for every moment of it. You have already taught me so much in your short little 5 months on this big earth. Love, and patience, and joy in the little things. I chuckle as I watch you get frustrated trying to get something just so. I chuckle because I know you get this from me. You also love to pull those funny faces or do something silly. You are always making me laugh. This you get from your daddy. I love to watch you as you explore the world and learn so many things each new day. I sit in awe and try and figure out how I could possibly deserve to have such a wonderful little soul to care for. I'll never know. I just hope that I can be the mommy that you deserve. I hope that I can teach you all the things you need to know about life. I know I won't always be perfect, but I want to be my best for you. You deserve that. You deserve the very best.